Update in 2014, April Style

Not long ago, I was inspired to write this particular blog. Its been almost a year since I’ve updated my site, and I guess subconsciously my brain has been begging me to give her a spin. But before I get into things, I thought I’d give everyone an update on how my life have been.

To start, I am healthy! Yes and amen that season of my life is finally (pretty much) over. I live a decently normal life, and I no longer have to deal with the struggle that disease brought me. Praise Jesus J

I have found the love of my life, Caesar Rollice. We met at my previous job, and since then, we haven’t spent a week apart from each other. Its been an amazing growing process for the both of us, and we are so happy to see what God has in store J

I am currently a Nanny for a beautiful 3 month old little girl. It literally has been my dream job, and I am so incredibly blessed to get to care for such an amazing child day after day. I never thought I would have a job where I didn’t want the weekend to come.

But really, that’s why I am writing today. See, after my surgeries, I went through a very rough period of growing up. Making my own decisions (which most were bad), figuring out what I WANTED to do with my life, and trying to find who I REALLY AM, was a hard and reckless road I journeyed. About 8 months ago, with a ton of help from Caesar, I straightened up, pulled myself together, slapped myself around a bit, and realized that WASN’T the life I wanted to live.

College was a hard time. I was dealing strongly with panic attacks. I was dealing with depression. And adding that on top of school (which already doesn’t come easy to me), was too much. So yes, I dropped out of college. But yes, I will be going back.

Another thing that came as a shock, was the tremendous amount of guilt from many people in my life. Which of corse didn’t help with the depression and such. And to be honest, I do believe it was a major step in my whole “growing up process”. As painful as it was, I know that God used all of those (*achem*) people to wake me up, and realize that it is actually okay to make a decision of my own for once. Even if it’s a bad one. And even if no one agrees with it.

So there is the update. Thank you again to all who keep me in your thoughts and prayers. As much as I say the battle is over, it really quite isn't. But I will keep journeying on, one step at a time.

Love Love Love,

-Kaitlin